Saturday, December 23, 2006

Dear Friend.

Ok, so here's the gist. Wait, let's create some mind pictures....

You are surrounded by a plethora of human beings. They are not just ORDINARY human beings, they are people who get suckered in. What am I talking about? They fall in love with the IDEA of love. You know, someone always being there, someone to care for, the fairy tale lifestyle (to me, you still become more of the cinderella), the common saying, "Oh its for the kids", and the list goes on. Why? It's the idea, that people like to play house for a little while. Despite the constant mistakes of their "lover" they take them back OR GO back for, what reason? Is sex that important? No, wait...it's being in love...."I love him." No, you don't trust yourself or whatever your belief is that there is something better for you out there.
Have you listened to my song on myspace? For those who are dying to find this love in somenone who has failed you, really take a listen, becuase there is more to life than playing house. For those of you captured in a circle of lies and "take you backs" trust something other than your gut this time. There are some who have been wiser and then there are some of those who play the SAME game with the SAME result HOPING that "he's changed" - PLEASE.

Usually something, like that, so I have heard in my counseling 101 class that's a pure image of "insanity" and Freud said this, I have APA citation if you need it.

Here's another picture to consider:

You and him, in love, three kids. What more can u ask for? No picket white fence, but a husband and some kids. Anyone can look at this picture and think "WOW" she has it all, the woman living it "WOW, I have it all." It's all the good she presses hard to see! She looks for ALL the good, despite the flaws that lie right in front of her face. She refuses to look, she refuses to embrace the reality, that you know, sometimes it just doesn't work out. Back and forth, back and forth does nothing but create boundary after boundary. You will take him back regardeless, why change when he can play you?

Oh, and then...what ABOUT those kids?

A longwinded friend, a concerned friend...but nonetheless I have no control :( Remember, missy we go back to Kinder, I'm good at this stuff!!

Monday, March 20, 2006

Journey

Close your eyes - calm your soul
Breathe in Slowly
Begin to capture the essence of "Right Now"
What are you thinking?
Can you write it?
Now, open your eyes
What's different?
Gaze out the window
"What does it remind you of?"
Embrace yourself with words
Life Love Laughter Tears
They each speak of a journey
Life - is how it all begins
Tears - unwelcoming departure
Inbetween you love and laugh
The tears come alive - holding on
Few welcome those
Pain, has been the reason
Delighted, they are in a better place
Close your eyes
Tell me of a journey
Only you know