Unconditional love

What is this, I mean there's a post about love each time I sit here to write. Well, here it goes:
You see, I had this amazing change in my life. Yet, it took me a long time to realize this gift was truly amazing. Unfortunately it took loss, to uncover or rather discover this thing called unconditional love. I always thought I had nothing to give or rather not good enough to receive. I think somewhere I taught myself different.

Who/What is this gift inquiring minds may want to know....He's my puppy Astro. How silly that I would devote a post thankful for a dog, but if you only knew what he has done for my life. I mean he has provided countless hours of laughter and frustration, and better yet he forgives and forgets rather quickly so makes discipline easier, yet obnoxious.
Now, I would have to say, I'm a little more thankful for what I have,
because at one interval I almost lost the opportunity to have this in my life. I'm not sure who or what to think. However, I am eternally grateful for the lesson I have learned. For me, I have found the perfect dog, and when I first adopted him, I worried he would never ever like me because he would just growl at me. Almost 6 months later, he's my little shadow and is constantly insearch of me.

Unconditional love, it took a sweet puppy to show me something that was hidden. (As he brings me his plethora of toys, I end this for now).

Dear God.

Dear God,
I don't know any other way to tell You than to just come out and say it: I've let You down, Father, and I'm so sorry.
It happened the same way it's happened so many times before: I felt the pull of the temptation. I walked over to take a closer look- telling myself that I wouldn't get too close. But I just keep walking- closer and closer. With each step my conscious thoughts- of You, of what I was about to do, of where I was going- began to shut down.
By the time I got to the edge of it, I was numb. Numb to You. Numb to the promises I've made. Numb to the hurt my actions would cause me and those I love. All the warnings I'd heard just a short while before were silenced. My mind and my heart were iced over with nothingness. And then I took the final step. It was as if I were on autopilot.
Then when the deed was gone, the freeze on my heart began to thaw and reality began to dawn once again. The ache in my heart began to anew. The shame. The regret.
It took everything in me to come to You this time. Voices in my head tried to tell me that You were sick of my weakness. Sick of my sin. Sick of me. But somewhere deep in my heart. I remembered Your Son and His sacrifice.
Lord God, is it possible for me to finally master this sin? Will I ever have victory over it? Do You even hear me after I've disappointed You so many times?
Your Penitent Child